I plurked that a few weeks ago on the day just before I left Singapore.
I was in Church and possibly my very last church service in a long time to come.
I have been praying for months to find something worthwhile to do in Singapore so that I can remain close to my family and friends. Alas, it has fallen on deaf ears or was there no one at the other end to pick up my prayer call in the first place?
Now don't get me wrong, I love my current job and the opportunity that comes with it. It is like the Two of Spades in the game of Chor Dai Dee where it is the best card and you only play it right at the end. However, the price to pay for that kind of money and power is beyond imagination. A solitary nomadic life. Not many people have the mental appetite for it.
My crisis of faith arises when my prayers went unanswered and I have had a miserable year prior, working with idiots and morons. I was there to bear witness to see good people suffered injustice while I was helpless to offer any assistance. I was also there to see two-faced conniving witches pretending to be angels while plotting your murder.
Where were You?
I am now in QQLand on my own and I believe I got there on my own. Some may say that this is God's plan to put me in QQLand which is why my prayers to remained in Singapore were denied.
I say bullshit. That's just self-fulfilling prophecy.
So for now, I am taking a break and to get myself some peace of mind. I am done looking for Him. He can come look for me instead, if He exists in the first place.
18. JayWalk left...
Tuesday, 30 March 2010 10:46 pm :: Sophie:
Well, we'll see how it goes. Not going to think about it anymore. If it happens, it happens. If not, the no biggie either.
If you are still feeling upset, you still have me to talk to! :)