12 November 2005

5 Things (Part 5) - My Recurring Nightmare

I am sure all of us have nightmares from time to time. Some dreams featured be monsters or ghosts. Others would be a dream of tragedies, personal or otherwise. Overall, it would be a dream that played out your fear(s) without you knowing that it was merely imagination running amok in your head while you were sleeping.

My problem is that I have a recurring nightmare that played out over and over again. It may vary from dream to dream but the plot is very much consistent throughout.

I have nightmares about exams. I don't fear exams actually but it is the fear of being unprepared for an exam that scares me.

A typical dream would be me as a student in school or university and I was there to take the exam.

Problem is that I didn't study for it at all. The most excruciating part were the minutes before the exams where I was frantically flipping through my textbook and notes hoping every last word I managed to cramp in would score me an extra mark. I would always wake up at this point but enough torment to jerk me out of bed as I awakened.

Another type would be a dream of me looking at the wall calendar with a particular subject's exams marked on a certain date and it would only be a mere few days away. The same fear would strike me as in the dream, I have yet to start my revision. The fear is one of helplessness knowing full well that even if I start studying immediately, it would be useless.

The most tormenting part of both dreams was when you are there fretting frantically going "How? How? How?".

Laugh all you want at my folly but it really sucked to be me as far as the recurring nightmare is concerned. I still get it from time to time, albeit less often even though the very last paper I took was 10 years ago. It is still haunting me.

- Voxeros

1. mihuatang left...
Friday, 11 November 2005 1:45 pm
you cannot get out of the period of exam stress. your mind is sick, you should see a mind doctor.

everyone has their own fears. our subconscious mind just recorded in and replay them in our sleep. believe me, i have my own fears/dreams too.

2. heather left...
Saturday, 12 November 2005 3:22 am ::
*lol* Are you stress or what?

3. JayWalk left...
Saturday, 12 November 2005 8:44 am :: 
mihuatang: I dun think it is THAT serious to warrant a trip to the shrink. Besides, it's been quite a while since the last one. Problem is that even one bad dream would have ruined that night for you.

heather: I am ALWAYS under stress. It's part of etching a living.

4. Sheena left...
Sunday, 13 November 2005 1:36 am
I don't think this is something as terrible as being stuck in a sort of warp in time, like mihuatang says. This recurring dream stems from a fear of failure. Most times, dreams don't reflect what actually happened in our lives, but rather our deep-seated subconscious. All this dream indicates is, you have a fear of failure! (Quite understandable.)
*psychologist talking* ;p

5. akk left...
Sunday, 13 November 2005 2:03 pm
you are not alone in having such dreams. I use to go through such feelings too, but more often in Real-Life, rather than virtually. i believe that nightmares generally recount the scariest emotions a person can have and using a particular scenario that the person can relate to, to project it. Now I have nightmares that my research results were rejected or I lost them. Same emotional wreck...

6. JayWalk left...
Sunday, 13 November 2005 11:29 pm ::
Sheena: Fear of failure. Don't we all?

Akk: Interesting to know that you also kena this thing too. Hmm...

7. Zhe Bin left...
Tuesday, 15 November 2005 5:41 am
Eh! Why ah? I also have recurring dreams. I don't see this as a problem for myself lah. Maybe because this doesn't happen v.often. But I have this same dream that will appear now and then. I will dream that I'm waiting for the MRT then suddenly out of nowhere a force will push me on to the MRT track! Then as the train comes v.near me I will give a 'kick' and wake up liao. Wtf.

8. JayWalk left...
Tuesday, 15 November 2005 8:35 am :: 
Zhe Bin: Not a problem but it puzzles me why I am still getting this type of bad dreams even when I last graduated like 10 years ago? 10 years leh!!

9. kIm left...
Tuesday, 15 November 2005 11:20 am
wah. I'm still having those dreams.. The worse thing is, here I am being frantic over exams in reality, in my dreams I'm also exposed to that sort of mental torture. Tong4 ku3!!!
10. JayWalk left...
Tuesday, 15 November 2005 12:47 pm :: 
kIm: I know that feeling but at least in real life you would have set enough lead time ahead of exams to do your revision. 

In the dream, it's like today is the exam and you only realised that that very day. Panic!

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